I Want Me Mammy

Which Sesame Street Character Are You?
	You are Elmo. You are lovable and ticklish, and always inquisitive. Sometimes, though, your excitement about the world can make you seem childish, naive, and occasionally irritating to others.
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Dear God, I'm Elmo, which is probably appropriate since I want my mummy to tell me what I should do about this rowing thing.

There's something pathetic about being 34 and still needing your mummy to tell you what to do.

This rowing thing has me torn up inside. On the one hand, I don't want to disappoint my friend. On the other, the circuits last night felt like one of the most humiliating experiences of my life as I stood there, huffing and sweating, a mammoth in a flock of gazelles. All the girls seemed to know each other and stood around in circles, talking to each other while we stretched out and the coach gave his openning instructions - those leggy, tall, fit, cliquey creatures that were the reason why I avoided things like rowing and rowing teams when I actually was an undergrad. So for an hour, I ran around and hauled myself up and down off the floor and sweat and gasped and pushed my body until it literally wouldn't move (not including the exercises that I couldn't do, like squat jumps and lunges) all the time feeling like the world's biggest joke.

When I finally asked someone a direct question, she answered me and was very nice but right now, the thought of going back has me in tears. And tears aren't something I do normally.

Then again, if there is one thing this last month has been, abnormal is it. I still feel out of place in Ireland, physically as much as anything, emotionally out-of-whack, raw and defenceless. In another time, another place, I might have set my jaw and braved it out. But here and now, I feel every one of the 135 pounds overweight that I am, I feel judged and unwelcome and I'm honestly not sure that it's worth it.

I want me mammy to tell me what to do.

'Tis Better To...

Because I'm currently depressed as hell about rowing, gakked from kaelsu2:

For the first five people who reply to me and re-post this challenge, I will send you something. It might be something I've made just for you, or something cool from my collection, it might be a mix CD or a book I think you will enjoy, a graphic or something else that I think you might like. Whatever it is, I promise that I will get it to you in 365 days or less or you are allowed to beat me with a wet noodle.

The only thing you need to do in order to participate is to be one of the first five to reply to this, AND post this entry on YOUR live journal - 'cause its fun to give people stuff.

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I admit, there may have been the slighest bit of cheating to get this result. Except for the fact that many Fridays do see me with a book at home instead of on the town.

Which Disney Princess Are You?
	You are Belle. You are strong, deep, and you are not a slave to petty superficial things. You are independent and allow yourself to see inner beauty without sacrificing your values. You are almost too good of a person.
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I didn't cheat at all this time and I'm Buffy. I wanted to be The Bride. Then again, The Bride used to be an assassin. Girlfriend had moral issues and let's face it, if anything, I've always hewed a little too close to the white hat side of the moral ledger. Still, Buffy? Couldn't my heoric alterego at least have been tall?

Which Female Action Hero Are You?
	You are Buffy the Vampire Slayer. You are outgoing, warm, and sociable. Your intelligence and intuition give you a strong sense of right and wrong; you may be soft, sweet, and a little air-headed at times, but you are fully capable of proving yourself more than a stereotype.
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