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Why must writing be so difficult?
Theoretically, I'm transcribing the pages I wrote in longhand last month. In reality, I'm trying to kill the tedium of the first scene and introduce some of the protagonist's motivations. It's turning really tell-y instead of show-y - is this any better than tedious? And I'm pages and pages behind on my page count for this week as switching my goal from writing every day to writing 20 pages a week (I write longhand in a composition book so 20 pages a week is a quite reasonable goal) caused a bit of a hiccup in my production. In other words, I need to write 18 pages today to make my goal (although I think I may give myself credit for the pages I type into Veronica Mac). For the coming week (which starts on Monday, not Sunday, in Cranky-land) is to write every day for a total of at least 20 pages a week. My ultimate goal is to write a novel this year: writing everyday, at least 20 pages a week, for the next 47 weeks.
I feel that this is a very reasonable goal, one completely within my grasp - even if actually committing that goal to 'paper' still makes me anxious. But I'm trying not to let the panic and the anxiety and the fearful 'ohmygodihavenotalent/imagination/abilityandnoonewilleverwanttopublishme' thoughts to drive me to throw away my pens and hide under my bed. This, unfortunately, is the hard part, harder than writing everyday or writing 20 pages a week - harder even than thinking up a plot or the right name for a character. For me, following my gut and finding the self-confidence to keep moving forward is the hardest part of writing.
Wish me luck.
Theoretically, I'm transcribing the pages I wrote in longhand last month. In reality, I'm trying to kill the tedium of the first scene and introduce some of the protagonist's motivations. It's turning really tell-y instead of show-y - is this any better than tedious? And I'm pages and pages behind on my page count for this week as switching my goal from writing every day to writing 20 pages a week (I write longhand in a composition book so 20 pages a week is a quite reasonable goal) caused a bit of a hiccup in my production. In other words, I need to write 18 pages today to make my goal (although I think I may give myself credit for the pages I type into Veronica Mac). For the coming week (which starts on Monday, not Sunday, in Cranky-land) is to write every day for a total of at least 20 pages a week. My ultimate goal is to write a novel this year: writing everyday, at least 20 pages a week, for the next 47 weeks.
I feel that this is a very reasonable goal, one completely within my grasp - even if actually committing that goal to 'paper' still makes me anxious. But I'm trying not to let the panic and the anxiety and the fearful 'ohmygodihavenotalent/imagination/abilityandnoonewilleverwanttopublishme' thoughts to drive me to throw away my pens and hide under my bed. This, unfortunately, is the hard part, harder than writing everyday or writing 20 pages a week - harder even than thinking up a plot or the right name for a character. For me, following my gut and finding the self-confidence to keep moving forward is the hardest part of writing.
Wish me luck.